Working Mom Special Report
April 2005
NEWSLETTER ARCHIVE
     

A STORYTELLERS PRAYER

I'm hard pressed on every side. Crushed between a rock and a hard place. With no more ability to offer resistance than a grape caught in a winepress, my only choice is to burst, giving absolutely everything I am and all that I have to the winemaker.


Saving You:
Time, Energy & Money!

I'm told that the purpose behind my present pain will someday be explained or understood. A small consolation when I can't focus on anything except the fact that I hurt. I hurt so badly it amazes me that the intensity of the pain has not sapped the very life out of me. Evidently, pain itself cannot kill you; or I would've died a thousand times already…and it would've been a sweet release.

Did I really volunteer for this crushing, unrelenting assignment? Was I aware there would be precious little encouragement as I walk along this valley? And it's a dark, cold, dangerous and lonely valley. The images I see on my left and my right aren't just figments of my imagination. They are real; and they'll stop at nothing to do me harm. And it's because of you, the winemaker, (also known as the potter.) That's precisely why they hate me so…because they hated you first.

They scream lies to everyone in the winepress, trying in vain to “curdle” us, and separate us, so we cannot blend together as we were intended to do.

What on earth am I supposed to do about it? I'm crushed myself. All I can do is listen intently to your still small voice, and beg you to somehow deaden the sound of the enemies. Soften the blows from their psychological, mental and sometimes physical blows.

IT'S COME TO THIS

So far, I've been: bludgeoned, battered, despised, cursed, mocked, suffocated and alienated. All because I signed up to go into the winepress. I could no sooner leave the winepress than I could cease to be a grape. It's completely out of my hands. I don't regret my decision…I know that I'm a portion of something that will be ultimately wonderful. I know that my present pain will yield something making me more valuable, even healing for others.

But oh, my God it hurts. Can't you do something about the pain? Can't you just bless me with respite? I used to boast about my strength…how I wish I could take back those arrogant thoughts and words…I couldn't be any weaker than I am now. So totally helpless. It's pitiful.

A PURPOSE IN THE PAIN

Has that been part of the plan? Is it somehow about me? Did you need to allow me to be bruised to this extent to eliminate my inaccurate perception of what I could accomplish on my own strength?

Well, I'd say you've made your point. I get it. There's no pride left to be wrung out from me. I've reached rock bottom and burrowed in a few inches. I only boast in you, and take pride in what you can do with such a weak, weak creature like me.

Get me out of this winepress! Take me off of the Potter's wheel! Deliver me from wandering in this desert, thirsting for water! As a child comes before a loving Father, I cling to your ankles absolutely begging for sanctuary.

There is simply no other hope than hoping in you. You alone have the power to fight the demons…the ones outside me and the secret ones that lurk within. I've tried to get rid of them in my own strength, and it was worse than futile…akin to deliberately banging my head against a brick wall in the hopes of knocking it down.

I can't complete this assignment unless you do all the work.

And I mean all of it.

The only thing I have to offer is yieldedness. I offer up what's left of me to you as a meager offering.

A MIRACULOUS PRECEDENT

You multiplied 5 loaves of bread and two small fish and fed over 5,000 people with it. Well, here we go again. What I have to offer is so small that it will take an outright miracle for you to make a dent in this multitude. But I offer up my two mites hoping against hope for your acceptance. As I make my offering, onlookers laugh at my pathetic tiny contribution.

And then I hear the still small voice. You are pleased. My gift of everything I have somehow pleases you. You love me. You cry with me as the winepress churns out yet another ounce of what used to be my life blood.

NEW LIFE

I won't need that old life blood anymore. You've given me new life. Eternal life that cannot be taken away. I hear whispers your love, you've written an entire book declaring your love and concern for me. And you proved your love for me in front of the entire world, standing with your arms outstretched, taking my sins upon yourself.

You endured unimaginable physical, spiritual and mental suffering because you love your children so. Like the tiniest drop of arsenic makes a gallon of cool, clean purified water toxic; you spared your children from drinking from the well they poisoned with their own hands. You've given your children living water. And the cost of that living water was enormous. For the love of me…your child, you found the way to preserve my free will, and take care of the justice due to me for my propensity to sin.

AMAZING LOVE

But there's more. You send gentle winds that whisper “I love you. You are mine.” You command the birds to sing sweetly outside my window, a song of your care. You've given me brothers and sisters who love me, and encourage me. And no matter what I might think, you've never left me alone to walk along the valley of the shadow of death.

You have always been with me. Comforting me with your rod and your staff. You've prepared a table for me in the presence of my enemies, my cup actually runs over. Without a doubt, your goodness and mercy will continue to chase after me all the days of my life until I go to dwell in your house forever.

So be it.